My Musical Bucket List Adventure
6 am, June 20th, 2017
I was already out of my bed. It was only for this special day.
I was visiting my favorite city, Montreal. Since my first visit in 2012, I’ve been in love with this amazing city for its rich artistic culture. I couldn’t help but do something different there, maybe even a bit crazy, something I had been dreaming of for years.
As I grow, I find it harder to express myself directly and completely, and do things that are outside of the daily routines. I have all of these ideas of new things I want to try, but I don’t know if people would care about what I say or do and I’m afraid that I may not get any response, let alone support. When I was a kid, I was so eager to be a grownup. But now being a grownup, I wish I could have the freedom to express myself and dream like a kid. I always admire those who hold onto their goals even if others laugh at them or discourage them. I just need to push myself to do the things on my bucket list. After all, strength and courage come within ourselves.
I was at Snowdon metro station in Montreal. I found the music sign in front of which anyone can sing or play instruments. I felt weird and awkward, but I talked myself into staying there.
I took out my ukulele and started to sing.
It was just a few minutes, but time seemed to freeze. And I seemed to become a different person, a fearless woman staying true to herself.
I had never been more proud of myself.
Finally I was done. Most people just walked by without looking at me. Some stared at me and some smiled. I didn't care. I just really enjoyed myself. I couldn’t believe I did this. And I couldn’t be happier that I checked this off on my bucket list. I should have done this years ago.
Singing is one of my favorite hobbies. When I feel stressed or sad, I would sing to myself and it would always make me feel better. My first performance was back in elementary school. At the age of 8 years old, I sang a song in front of my class and some of my classmates even asked me to sign autographs for them! I felt like a star, but l didn’t actively look for other performing opportunities after that. Partly because I was not so confident, partly because I sang a lot with my friends at karaoke, which was great too.
I started having this idea of singing in the subway or on the street about five years ago, as I was studying and traveling in Canada and I saw so many wonderful street singers. I became obsessed with street performance - I like how freely one can express oneself through it in any open space, and how it is shared with everyone who is there. I said to myself that I should do it too, but I was too shy to take action back then. It takes a lot of courage. And I’m glad that I’ve become more confident and courageous to have realized it.
This experience empowered me to keep pursuing my other goals.
Montreal has inspired me tremendously. This is a city where a piano is placed on the top of Mont Royal for the public. I witnessed my friend playing the piano and a guy sat down, took out a hand drum and played along. This is a city where street singers sing their hearts out. This is a city where people dance in the park like no one is watching. This is a city where art is inseparable from life.
I want to live my life as an adventurous journey full of surprises.
Oh and what was the song I sang?
"Loving can hurt. Loving can hurt sometimes. But it's the only thing that makes us feel alive."
May we always have the courage to love and to chase dreams.